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Driving Irresponsibly is the first installment of the amazing true story that is the current incarnation of TIMOTHY SPAHN, a man whose childhood psychic visions begin resembling real life. This mind-bending spiritual odyssey will leave you second-guessing what you thought you knew about everything.

It’s the late 1980’s. After a powerful energy experience on July 4th leaves Timothy praying for insight, the answer comes through the still, small voice: “Go into the world and build something.” Little did he know back then this was precisely what certain powers that be hoped he would not do. Still, his greatest obstacle to success could be his own ego.

Despite a circuitous path and apparent fatal errors, young Timothy rents his first apartment at The Phoenix Apartments, a fitting name and a place he will repeatedly go when transformation and renewal are required. Working diligently to belatedly join the world of workaday adults and “build something,” the undercurrent of spiritual mystery persists. An experience of his own soul and a sacred text that literally falls in his lap evokes a desperate response from his ego: “close the book!” Could its existence be threatened by the wisdom inside? What is this book and what information does it contain?

It’s the early 1990’s, far from the last time Timothy would wrestle with his ego, what starts out as a leisurely hike on the 4th of July becomes an initiatory test that brings him face to face with horror as intuition prompts him to risk his life as a demonstration of faith that some unseen force is pulling his strings. What does it mean that these things keep happening on America’s Independence Day?

Any one of the many tests that follow could disqualify him. But rare Timothy has a competitive advantage: he has the eyes of the Oracle. The psychic dreams of his youth resume with mature seriousness. More than two dozen past lives, his part in an apocalyptic future and even being sent back from the future! Peering into his next life, a television personality — who is somehow also God — shows compassion for the pitiful failure before him. It’s Timothy! He is scheduled for infamy. It’s good to have friends in high places. “Want another chance?” Timothy wakes up in his waterbed. It’s 1993 again!

A profound sense of disillusionment sets in that prompts an angry prayer to God, “Use me in Your Plan!” Prudence might say be careful what you ask for. The Cosmic Christ, for lack of a definitive title, God Almighty appears in a dream seated atop a Mayan pyramid. Permission to enter Nirvana is denied. Timothy’s dream self is plunged into a battle instead. It’s an omen that shows up more and more in his waking life.

It’s the late 1990’s. The battle is afoot. In his waking life, professional Timothy succeeds at achieving something of worldly success. But away from work, themes of sex, drugs and rock ‘n roll cast a dubious shadow on this otherwise innocent soul. At the climax of disillusionment, addiction and dysfunction, the same voice that guided him to “go into the world and build something” returns with an update. “Now that you have all your ego wants, give it up for the unknown adventure that awaits.”

Back at the Phoenix Apartments, this time as its manager, the place strangely reflects his own poisonous vices. Apartment manager Timothy accepts the challenge of evicting drug dealers while resisting invitations from some of its more attractive inhabitants. A peak spiritual experience of selfless love precedes the entrance of a Divine Being with the curious question, “Remember me?”

A process of Christian investigation ultimately exposes the unknown adventure as none other than The Return of the Christ, The World Teacher for All Humanity, who is waiting in the wings and preparing Earth’s inhabitants for the impending moment of global declaration. Timothy’s path, should he choose to accept it, is “to follow.”

Can Timothy sidestep the unfortunate future he was shown? Or will he repeat the mistake that necessitated his second chance? No wonder the old man said he was driving irresponsibly!

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It’s 2002. Out of money and back in the U.S. after his 18-month pilgrimage in India, Timothy is back to work and back at the Phoenix Apartments. As time goes by, new people show up in his life who portray a striking resemblance to characters in his past life visions. His chosen profession – accounting – is apropos, since these interactions invariably call him to account for the lingering aftereffects of his past deeds, a metaphysical phenomenon that will clarify The Little Work as his own karma.

His second-sight recollections of alternate futures become useful tools for managing pitfalls and threats. But old habits die hard and Timothy winds up on his knees praying for rescue from a relapse of addiction. Sai Baba whispers the details of a plan. A horrific spider demon in the crack house next door? When Jesus appears in the doorway and banishes the thing to the mountains, the entirety of the dark brotherhood turn their heads and see Timothy for what he really is — bait for evil. Now, there will be hell to pay.

It’s 2007. The choice has been made — the means they will use to destroy him. On the morning of the attack, another message from the voice of old: “You are walking in the footsteps of Ward Churchill.” It would be years before Timothy would accept what he has in common with the embattled former university professor who publicly criticized the Federal government of the United States for corrupt practices. Sounds like a job for Teddy Roosevelt!

Years of subtle persecution in the aftermath of “the Patriot Act” reveal Timothy’s task as not so much to stand alone as to stand as the only one anyone else can see. Driving to work amid an ominous windstorm, desperately questioning whether God still wants him hanging around — another palm branch incident!        The enormous tree branch barely glances his speeding car while solidly assuring he is still in the fold.

Will Timothy do The Little Work, overcome the weight of the world (and his own karmic debt) and prevail?

What’s the message of the dream that shows him catching the falling baby?

What about the one that has him smashing the crystal globe?

One thing’s for sure — who he WAS won’t save him!

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